Man, my body aches. I was exercising the other day, thinking I was still at the same level I was at before, even though I haven't practiced or even exercised over the last few weeks (due to the winter break). Well, I was dead wrong. I hurt all over now... Oh well, I guess. I wonder how Wushu will go for tomorrow. Will anyone be there aside from me? If so, then great! If not, then I'll just have to train alone, like I did the other day. Which is cool by me. Anyway, just wanted to write a little sumthin' sumthin' since I haven't done it in, what seems, forever.

Oh yeah! I wanted to say that I got a REAL rope dart! My brother got it for me for christmas. I'm so scared to use it though. The problem is not that it's sharp, because it isn't at all. The problem is that it's so heavy. I knew that it was gonna be a little heavy, but that weight far exceeded my expectations. I guess I'll just keep to the tennis balls tied to a rope for now until I become proficient enough in it to make a GRADUAL shift.

I hope that I can continue my Wushu Training after Alex leaves. He is like my idol. All his moves, his technique, his forms are precise and exact. I want to be like him so bad, maybe even surpass him. But I know I will never do that, unless I work super hard and train like I'm supposed to. And I plan on doing that, that's why I made an everyday work-out schedule telling me things that I can do to gain strength, increase flexibility, and maintain control for when I execute a manuveur. Of course I got Alex's help, so I can make sure that I cover things needed.

I'm suprised that I'm awake right now. Last night I only got about an hour of sleep, if that much, and I just came back from watching Finding Neverland, which by the way was a great movie. I need to go to sleep, but it's time to start cramming for my psychology test tommorrow. As long as I cram now for about 45 minutes, and review it again tommorrow before the test, I'll be able to pass. So I guess I need to go. I'm just so happy that this week is almost over. This week has been evil. Tests, quizzes, tests, homework, papers, tests, lab reports, tests, prelabs, tests, etc. (Yes I know that I put tests on their several times.) It has been exhausting. Well, it's almost over now. Just one more day... wait a minute... today is that day!!! YES!!!!

Today was a good day! I woke up around 10 or so and practiced with Alex around 11. It was FUN! I got to be critiqued on my Wushu some and learned much more about Wushu itself, techniques used, and about the FSU Wushu club itself. I learned so much today. I like days like to today, I feel like I got a lot done, like things were productive.

Also during the day I got to hang out with Alex for a bit and watch some old club videos. Watching people do tumbling and flips and jumping, inspired me. I was feeling bad before that I was failing at the Butterfly Twist on Friday. Everytime I tried, I failed misurably... it did begin to break my focus a bit, not to the point of quitting what I was doing, but just hurting me a little...somewhere on the inside...(*this is where u are supposed to go awwww) But after seeing those videos, and noticing that I'm not the only person to fail when doing that stuff and that I'm not the only person to fear, I feel so much better of things. My confidence has begun to come back. I think that I am ready for almost anything now... almost. (*That was a joke... time to laugh)

I also got to borrow a book, called Basics of  Long-Style Boxing. I'm almost already done with reading this book. This book was very interesting and I'm going to have to try to do much of the stuff that the book suggests to improve my technique, style, and form. It has ways to increase flexibility and strength. I'm going to have to read this book again and again to sucessfully digest the wealth of knowledge that stems from it.

So all in all today was a GRRREAT day! Only one thing went wrong. It was all my fault that it happened, but it's ok though, it'll all work out.

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FINALLY!!!! I'VE LEARNED IT!!! CHANG QUAN 1!!!! My life is complete. That is one of my life goals completed!

Many people don't understand my love for Wushu. Actually, I don't really understand it at all either. I know that I'm not that good at it. I see others make so much progress, while it seems that I am falling far behind. I don't know why I feel this way, I just do. I guess it's because Wushu is still new to me even though I been doing it for about...3 months now. Wow! 3 months... where does the time go? It feels as though I just began college life...but now my 1st semester as a freshman is almost over... Wow... But I figure that one day I'll become great in Wushu. Wushu is my life now. For me, it's not just an exercise or an art form, but a way of life. It's in everything I do, everything I say, and every action that I take. It's there when I study, or draw, or even rest and relax. It's everywhere and in everything.